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2009-09-19T12:43:00.000-07:00

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YOU DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE!

2009-07-15T15:42:00.000-07:00

I am going to be straightforward with you and cut through the bullshit.

You DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE!
You DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING!

As Jesus’ words on the cross “Forgive them for they know not what they do.”

Here is the exercise for you:

Answer these questions:

Do you know what you are doing?
Do you know why you are doing what you are doing?
Are you aware of your actions?
Are you present to the things you are doing at every given moment?
Are you aware of the words that are coming out of your mouth? Or they are just coming out based on a reaction that was triggered by something?

You are stuck! Do you ever find yourself dating the “same” woman over and over again? Do you find yourself in the “same” situations over and over again? Do you find yourself repeating the “same” mistakes over and over again?

“Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.”
~Albert Einstein

You are living in an illusion!
Wake the fuck up!

See I know that choose is a nice word and we all want to have choose. If you think you have choice will you keep on choosing dysfunctional relationships or any other negative situation in your life? Choice can only happen if you are present and conscious in the moment. Choice implies a high degree of consciousness. Without it you have no choice. Choice begins the moment you disidentify from your conditioned patterns, the moment you become present. That goes to say that you are unconscious. Which means that you are compelled to think, feel, and act in certain ways according to your patterns and conditioning. Some think that the more you have in the world in form of money, intelligence, resources and so on the more choose you have. I want to make it very clear that how smart, intelligent, good, attractive, generous, funny, wild and clever you are does not have anything to do with how present you are. All these things are wonderful, but they become a problem when you start identifying yourself with them. The more you identify yourself with this external stuff the less presence you have and the more unconscious you are.

You know that voice in your head? That voice is your biggest obstacle to being present. Why do you think people go out to bars, clubs and parties and drink themselves to unconsciousness? May be people do that not because they want to become unconscious but simple because they want to become conscious. They want to make that voice in their head shut the fuck up for a moment and just let them be, although they are not aware that this is one of the biggest reasons why they are drinking so much (you can easily replace drinking with drugs). That voice in your head has a life of its own. That voice in your head is controlling you, it is telling you what to do and is tiring as fuck to listen to it all day long. Most people are at the mercy of that voice; they are possessed by it, by the mind. And since the mind is conditioned by the past, you are then forced to reenact the past over and over again. The voice in your head (that you think is you) is conditioned by your past so it always seeks to re-create what it knows and is familiar with. Even if it is painful, at least it is familiar. It always attaches to what it knows. The unknown is dangerous because it has no control over it.

Is there any resistance anywhere in you to what I am saying? Are you (your mind) totally confused by what I am saying? Are you ready to defend yourself and prove me wrong? Let me save you some time. Yes, I am totally and completely wrong and you are totally and completely right…

Take a moment and breath in everything that just happened. If you have to - go back, and read it again, and take it in, and notice where it is landing.

~

Someone, not sure who, has said:
“The harder the battle, the sweeter the victory.”

Well how does it feel in your body to have nothing to fight against? Or do you keep on fighting? Or may be you just scratched me off, judging and thinking that I am simply crazy and you cannot argue with a crazy person? Does the voice in your head telling you that I am wrong? Does that voice feel threatened in any way? Well again you are totally right and yes, I am completely crazy…

Are you confused yet?

See we all have created patterns and ways of being that have served us greatly at some point or another in our lives. If you still have resentment for your parents about something that they have done or have not done, thinking that they had the choice, you are still identifying yourself with those patterns. And unfortunately for us all those patterns have taken over us. They have been taking over, with us not even being aware of it. As a result of that we are acting most of the time from that place without us even knowing about it or even being aware of it. We do not have a choice any more. Our life is being run by it.

It seems like we, our parents, our intimate partners, or our friends have a choice, but that is an illusion. Nobody chooses dysfunction, conflict, and pain. They happen because there is not enough presence. You have not quite woken up yet. In the mean time, the voice in your head and the conditioned patterns of your mind are running your life.

So go back to where I said that you do not have a choice and that you are living in an illusion and just for a moment check the idea that I might be right. I am not saying that I am, I am simply asking you to just try on the idea, the concept that I might be right. Wear it on like you are trying a new shirt and see how it feels on your body and how you look with it.

So what I would like you to do is:

Sit down and write down every place you find patterns in your life. May be you always end up with the same kind of woman? May be you keep on doing the same mistake over and over again? May be you are finding yourself in the same kind of problems over and over again? Also simply look if you are thinking over and over about the same things. Since we are here to learn about women look for your patterns with women. But it does not really matter. I think in “Land Mark” is that they say, “the way you do anything is the way you do everything”.

Very important:
Do not judge it in anyway. Whether is bad or good - it does not matter. Who are you to determine good from bad? What is good anyway? What is bad? It simply is!

The reason I want you to do this is:
The only way to change a behavior, pattern is to bring awareness to it, to simply notice it and see it there.

Or another thing you r can do is:

Come to one of the many workshops I have across the country and I would be your tour guide caring a flashlight that I will shine it into the darkness. I use the world darkness simply because if you are not aware of something, and you do not know of it, you are on the dark about it. The awareness we can bring to it in a workshop environment is the light that shines, and no darkness can exist in the presence of light.

It will not disappear but you will have a choice around it. You still might want to choose to act from that place but it is no longer controlling you now, you have the choice to keep acting from that place or not.

“The eye with which I see God is the very same eye with which God sees me”
~Meister Eckhart

Email me or call me at:
415.531.2487 to get info for a workshop coming up close to you

Love and Light on your way
~Hristiyan

Words - he said, she said...

2009-06-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

Woman is the devil!

Nice and slowly. Beauty is a destructive angel. How could anything that looks so good be so bad? In the end, she gets them all. They think they can handle her…

Woman is an angel!

Her beauty brings tears to my eyes...
Her divine feminine opens me to God...

Which one is it?

Hmm hold on now, no one in my life has hurt me more then women have, no one have fucked me up more then women. Well of course they are the devil!

Hmm hold on again but no one has giving me as much pleasure and light as women have. OK then they are Angels.

But my life is so peaceful, calm happy and quite when there are no women in it, and it is wild, chaotic and crazy when I have a woman next to me.

But even in some religions woman is look at as the devil for she is the temptation for lust and desire. I think Adam and Eve fucked it all up for us.

But some ancient cultures respected the feminine greatly. Lau Tzu refers to the feminine as the mother of all things and that we all come from the mother and we all return to her. He says, “The Tao is called the Great Mother”

I am getting so confuse my head is spinning I cannot make up my own mind. What do you think? Are women Evil or Angels? I cannot tell anymore. I must be in my feminine right now, or something. Hold on, give me a minute, let me take few deep breathes… Oh I think I got it. I tell you what it is: It is words themselves. I tell you words are a tricky thing. Words are one-sided! Everything that can be thought in thoughts and expressed in words is one-side, only a half. All such things lack wholeness, fullness and unity. But the world itself, existence all around us and within us, is never one-sided. Never a woman (or man) is entirely wholly evil or wholly angel; never is a person entirely holy or sinful. That only appears to be the case because of the illusion that time is real. That is why great teachers like Buddha or Jesus always have to speak of good and bad, deception and truth, suffering and liberation and so on. As this example of the words of Lau Tzu:

When people see something as beautiful.
other things become ugly.
When people see something as good,
other things become bad.

Being and non-being create each other,
Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other.
High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.

There for the Master
acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and she lets them come;
things disappear and she let them go.
She has but does not possess,
acts but does not expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.
That is why it last forever.
~Lau Tzu
~Tao Te Ching

And yet so far in this post alone I have use over over 400 words. I want you to look at the words and use them as signs pointing you to that pure state of being, the place of original magic. I am not even here I am just guiding you, not teaching you. I will use words to guide us all to go deeper and deeper. I want you to simply observe how different words trigger you and what is your attachment to them. Some words will trigger bad emotions and some will trigger good emotions. All this emotion triggering is happening unconsciously. Those emotions are trigger from the definition that you have to the words. You have no control of those emotions because you are not conscious of your mind. Unconscious assumptions crate emotions in the body, which in turns generate instant reactions. Do your best not to react without being conscious to your reactions. Try your best to observe what reaction is coming up. For example if I tell you that “you are a fucking genius and a handsome mother fucker” or that “you are worthless peace of shit not worth living”. What is happening as you are reading this? Does the first one making you feel really good, may be make you smile a bit, or may be you are having a hard time letting that in? What about the second one? Are you ready to defend yourself and prove me that I am wrong or may be you were feeling down and now you found some comfort in those words thinking something like “see I knew it even he says it.”?

How funny are we people ah? These are just words why do we put so much attachment to them? Anyway just pay attention to your own reaction. The story that is coming up to your head as you are reading the words that I use or say in Podcast or videos. Be like: “hmm there it is this emotion is coming up again I am wanting to defend myself right now.” Or “oops I missed it I just reacted without being aware.” Or anything of that nature. It is quite entertaining when you start observing yourself, so now you can never be bored. You can laugh into tears when you start seeing all the crazy shit you are doing without you even knowing that you are doing it. And the good news is that the act of observing is an act of the self and not of the mind. So the very act of observation is bringing you into presence and not only into presence but into a conscious presence.

For now lets go back to exploring words. Another funny thing about words is that we all have different attachment to words. But somehow and for some weird reason that is not clear to me yet, we assume that the attachment and the meaning that we put to a word is the same one that everyone else puts.

That is why the words of Jesus for example have been interpreted in millions of different ways for the last 2000 years. Every one interprets them the way they find fit for them. Whether there are used for good or bad intentions. Here some more words about that from Meister Eckhart: “Indeed, I tell you the truth, any object you have on your mind, however good, will be a barrier between you and the inmost truth.” He goes on by saying “The just man loves God for nothing…” Of course the same can be said about Buddha, Lau Tzu and everyone else.

I very much hope that you are not here looking for some new theory or some new idea that you can put into use. Matter of fact I am trying to help you get rid of them all. They just get on your way of relating. As I said already everything that can be thought in thoughts and be said in words is one-sided. Every theory out there has to it a totally contrary one to it that is equally true. Some part of the people identify with one and some with the other. See theories and ideas are mind made things, ego made things. The more you are identifying yourself with certain idea or theory the more you are identifying yourself with the ego and less with your essence of your pure being, presence. So please try your very best not to attach yourself to words and the meaning that you (your ego) has put to them. Please, as I said, use the words I give you for guidance, use them like signs. Like a sign that says left or right and you follow them and see where they take you. Listen to the underling field of stillness from out of which the words come, there is a field of stillness that is both within and without. Gaps between the words, a silent space in between the words and simply be aware of that dimension.

Deeper teaching is not and through the words. The deeper teaching lays in the dimension of stillness.
~Eckhart Tolle

Forget everything that you have ever learned about relating or intimacy. Become as a newborn baby as he/she has no ego or attachment to form and has zero problems relating to anyone or anything.

To make this fun lets explore the meaning of the word love for example.
First of all what is the meaning of love for you?
I live in San Francisco with all the new age hippies (just right here did anyone felt offended by the words “new age hippies” or did anyone laugh and thought, “yes I know those”. Are you identifying yourself in someway with those words?) they all use the word love all the time. I also know of people that have used it once or never in his/her lifetime and I am sure the attachment and the value they put to it is a lot different.

Do a bit of research, go to few different dictionaries and find out what they have to say about “the L-word”:

For the Ego love is possessive and addictive clinging that can turn into hate within a sec.

Here is what the bible had to say:

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

- Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Last but not least remember to have fun with words just like Mike Myers did in the “The Love Guru”. Like for him Intimacy is “Into-Me-I-See”

Or

Nowhere is “Now-Here” come on that is creative, funny and very true, simply genius.

Or this one is really funny exploring what Bible stands for:
B - asic
I - nstruction
B - efore
L - eaving
E - arth

Seriously now please DO NOT ever take yourself too seriously.

Here try this exercise for a day and have fun with it:

First of all give the definition of these words (down below) that you have for them. Then find two-three women, I do not care if you know them or not friends, strangers or family and ask what is the definition that they give to these words. Then find out two-three men and ask them what is the definition of these words for them.

We started with “love” so lets find out more definitions of that word.
Love _____________________________________
Intimacy __________________________________
Relationship _______________________________
Happiness _________________________________
Fear ______________________________________
Ego ______________________________________
Good _____________________________________
Bad ______________________________________
Evil ______________________________________

Do, as many words as you can you do not have to do all of them. Feel free to find the meaning of words that you are curious to find the meaning of.

The Tao does not take sides:
It gives birth to both good and evil.
The Master does not take sides;
he welcomes both saints and sinners.

Have You Ever Lost Your Power As a Man In a Relationship?

2009-05-21T12:55:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt like you are on top of the world? Having your life together going places meeting a beautiful woman falling in love and few months into the relationship you end up feeling small, insecure and needy?

Ask yourself if you or anyone you know has or had both of this: loving, passionate, steamy hot, relationship and also is living life from the depths of his integrity as a man fully living his purpose and mission in life?

Are you ready to have both? Well if you are call me and come to my workshop!

How can a man be as productive, as powerful, as focused, as grounded, as solid, in the midst of a passionate relationship as he can be when he has no women in his life?

When we do not have a feminine partner next to us, I notice that we put all our energy and focus on either enjoying the simple beauty of life, the little moments. Or we put all our energy and focus on giving our gifts to the world.

I personally know men that purposely stay away from women because they see them as a distraction from where they are headed in life. After all it takes a lot of energy to maintain a healthy relationship doesn’t it? And lets be totally honest with each other women are pain in the ass!

To make it even more complicated women are way more attracted to us when we are so clear and focused on our mission in life. As we experience ourselves being clear, solid, focused and women attracted to us soon we find ourselves in a relationship with most likely a phenomenal woman.

As soon as we experience some depth of intimacy with this phenomenal woman, we begin to feel weaker as a man. We start to lose clarity, focus, and solidness. As a result of that our phenomenal woman experiences less attraction towards us. As a result of her being less attracted we start to feel even less focused, clear and solid. Not only that but pretty soon we become needy. Somehow from being on top of the world having our shit together giving our gifts, hooking up with a phenomenal woman to finding ourselves in a vicious circle feeling insecure, uncertain, and needy.

What happened along the way?
Shouldn’t things now be even better then before, after all now we have a phenomenal woman next to us to support us and encourage us to be better men in the world?

How can we stay with our hearth fully open to the world and our woman, while we maintain strong solid power with which we can penetrate the world and our woman right open?

Have you ever noticed that for us men we can do one or the other but not both at the same time?

It is easy to penetrate our women strongly and powerfully at the beginning of a relationship because our heart is not been fully open to her yet. As the relationship deepens our hearts open bigger to her and the more open our heart is the less powerful as a man we feel. It is like we are fully disconnected from our power when we are around our woman.

Maybe even at times when you are out in the world away from your woman you experience some sense of power and in the back of your mind you are think “God I wish she was here to see this”. Unfortunately not only that she wasn’t there to see it but also the moment you see her you completely lose it again. The moment you see her your heart simply blooms open and you instantly get disconnected from your power.

What would it be to be able to fully love her, heart wide open, and violently f*cking her all at the same time. Your love so big that it actually hurts of how much you love her, and yet you are taking her, penetrating her deeper then she has ever been before. Open heart and a hard cock.

Friend of mine the other day told me “as soon as she became sacred to me I was not able to spit at her” and I thought to myself “well I do not think that she would like you to spit on her if you do not see her as sacred.”

How can a man have both at the same time?

Samurais and Native Americans practice this. The practice to kill your opponent with love. To hunt with love. To f*ck with love. As Deida likes to say “murder her open to God with your f*ck”

Where can you start your practice?

Well like with every practice first start to pay attention to when you are feeling your power and when you are not. Start to feel when your heart is wide open and if you are feeling love whether is towards a flower, nature or a woman and notice if you can feel your power as a man in that moment. Become present to how you lose your power as your heart opens. Become present to how your heart closes as you are in your power.

From the place of being aware of those changes you can start to have a bit more choice around it.

Take full responsibility for creating your life. Be accountable for what you are creating. Know that there is not such a thing as the perfect woman. Know that if you are power is not rotted in love no matter with what woman you are with you will lose your power when your heart opens and as a result she will lose attraction to you as man. If you are in your power but you are not loving her she will also get turned off by you, your power will disgust her.

Once you can feel your heart fully open and maintaining your power as man and you can walk down the street maintaining both you will have to power to do something about any woman that you desire.

I have only one question for you:
ARE YOU READY TO HAVE THAT?

If you are keep reading if not you can stop right here.

Call me at 415.531.2487 and sign up for my workshop.

In it, you will get:

the very core basic foundation from which to interact with a woman so she is turn on by you
secret technique to create instant trust with a woman
simple eye contact method to have woman melting in your arms
how to touch a woman in way which she can feel your sexual power
how to speak to a woman so she can get what you are saying
how to avoid getting stuck or blocked in any stage of your relationship

Contact me at 415.531.2487 for more info.

Real World Seduction

2008-07-06T19:11:00.001-07:00

Hi,

How you been?

You have not heard from me in quite a while. I have been in search of myself. Also I a lot has happen in the last month all too much all too fast, all at the same time. At some moments was just a bit too much for my system. But I am glad to say that apparently the old saying “What does not kill you makes you stronger” which I have heard so many times from so many different people in the last month, it seems to be true.

I have spent this time mostly alone all though with the amazing love of my amazing friends all around me who were just a hand away at any time, and trust me I had to reach for it a lot. All thru out my life whenever I had a lot going on I would always keep myself extra busy with a million things like work, friends, parties, drinking, women and so on, just so I do not have to feel the pain. This time for the first time in my life I decide to just be with at all as it’s happening. I stayed home being with it all. I have to tell you it was one of the hardest things I had to do but I am glad I did it. I am much better man for it. I feel much more stable, balanced and grounded. I have learned so much about myself and about life as I was just looking within, spending time meditating and praying.

Now I am ready to go back and teach from a new place. A place that is new for me but it feels fucking great to be here, I wouldn’t want to be any other place but here. I am ready to teach from a place that is more open, more present, more real, more true. And if that is not enough all this time I have spent looking within I have had an amazing revolutions around women and especially seduction that I cannot wait to share with you in my workshop which by the way is next weekend July 11-13.

My workshop as we here at LVO3 named it is “Real Word Seduction”. Seduction is an art. Art that women have studied explored and perfect since the beginning of time and may be for the first time in the history men have to study it too. One of the most powerful things about my workshop is that I work with women that are very in touch with their feminine side and have great awareness. And not only that but they are willing to drop their guard down and to share with you about the their “games”.

See as I mention already women are master seducers and they love to play games and to throw you for a loop so the more you get suck into her games the worst it gets. You are playing a game that you are doom too lose simply because they are way better then you can ever be. So here is my tip for you and a little secret. Women play those games and secretly inside they are rooting for you they want you to win. But may be you are asking yourself already “but how can I win at a game that I do not even know how to play and even if I knew how can I win if they are the masters at it?” Well simple you do not have to win a game that you are not playing ;). I know it is a mind fuck and it is hard even for me to get my head around it. And of course there is a lot more to it then just this. So here is my tip. Drop your fucking games whether you come to my workshop or not fucking drop it. This is advice coming from a man that is a “Master Seducer”. Fuck man so many people have refer to me as Don Juan DeMarco. You know what fuck that…

I have always been surrounded with beautiful women and my ego was way over my head and it was controlling my fucking life. The moment I drop my ego and my games I had more women and better women around me then ever before and not only that but those women could relax around me and trusted me way more then I could ever thought I woman could trust a man in such a short time. And I do not know about you but there is nothing hotter for me then having a woman trust.

When a woman just looks at me completely relax being herself and says: “I love being here with you, I feel like I can fully relax and be myself with you. I usually do not feel that way with man.” I heard these words from a woman that was naked in my bed and I did nothing to seduce her. Well I do not know about you but when that happens to me my blood starts to boil and I feel so happy.

So at this point may be you are asking yourself again well how are you going to teach me about seduction when you are telling me to drop my games?

Well good question I like it. Well here is a question for you?

Have you ever studied any martial art? Or have you ever read about it or heard about it?

Well most of this martial art could be used to kill someone with it right? But they say that if you are master at martial art you never have to use it. I know a man that has studied and taught martial art for 30 years now and as far as he has told me he has needed to use it in real life only twice. Well we can explore this example in great depth and I will let you explore that for yourself and see how you can tie this concept back to seduction.

Well so I am not so coy I will add more to it. You know every little girl dreams about prince charming and to be slept of their feet right? Well there is seduction and there is seduction. There is a way to be with a woman that is fully there, fully present taking here ever so deeply, seen her bigger and deeper then she can even see herself, opening her with just one look, loving her ever so fully, holding her ever so closely, looking at her ever so openly, touching her ever so gently. It is not just her face, her figure, or her voice. Look into her eyes and find what is behind them, find her spirit and let it be free. Allow her to be herself with you. Feel her softness and warmness and feel how it brings tears to your eyes. Fell how she smells like angels ought to smell.

Well there is all that and there is playing games.

So if you are interested in still playing games well I am sorry but my workshop is not for you. If you are ready to drop your shit and be a real man. Man that is present, open, loving and giving. Man that makes a difference in the world. Man that lives a full and reach life. Well if you are ready to be that man then you definitely need to be in my workshop next weekend.

Here is the page:

http://lvo3.com/workshops.html

Go on there and see what Sean Messenger experience was in my workshop and sign up.

If you have any questions I will be more then happy to answer them personally. Feel free to email me at Hristiyan@LVO3.com or feel free to call me 415.531.2487

Love and Light on your way!

-Hristiyan

Sean Messenger Experience From Hristiyan Workshop

2008-07-06T18:10:00.000-07:00

You may know me. I'm one of the 25 best Pickup Artists in the World, apparently. But I have to confess something: I am NOTHING compared to Hristiyan. See, I've been in this game for a while. I started hanging with "naturals" when I was 12, and kept learning that way till I was 30, when I discovered DYD. Since then, I've worked with and made friends with the very best teachers and ladies men in the community. I know everyone, and everything. But I never felt the need to let someone ELSE teach me (even in the one class I did take, I ended up doing more teaching than learning).

That all changed the weekend that I decided to take Hristiyan's Innergame and Daygame Bootcamp. Hristiyan is not only my friend and my co-worker at LVO3, he's also, in a lot of ways, a mentor to me. As long as I've known him, I've marvelled at his ability to walk into a room, any room, and magnetcially draw the finest women to him with what looks like no effort. Now, I'm good at this stuff. DAMN good. But for me it's always work. I'm always putting something in. And what he did was so effortless, and it worked everywhere, on everyone. To be honest, I knew that I had to drop my ego and let him teach me, or we woudn't be able to hang out as buds anymore cos he'd keep stealing all the girls. :)

So I did it.

I wish I could tell you in full what the whole weekend was like, but there's one moment that I feel sums it up. See, me and just a small group of students spent 2 full days getting pushed and prodded and opened up and rebuilt by Hristiyan and his coaches. They found every weakness we had been hiding, pulled it out and replaced it with strength. They found why we didn't feel confident and put us through real exercises (not lectures) that built our confidence and kept it building. They pushed our limits of how great we thought we could be... and then it was time to test it with the single most challenging exercise I've ever done.

Hristiyan put his beautiful female assistant on the couch. He turned to me, and gave me a very simple directive.

"Walk over to her, sit down, and seduce her without words. No talking. You breathe, move, look, and feel the seduction."

As soon as he said this to me, I was scared and nervous as F*&^. How the hell was I supposed to do that? Then he whispered something to me, and it was like a light opening up in the clouds. I instantly understood what it was he did everytime he went out and women flocked to him like puppies who hear the word "cookie." He never needed to say anything, becuase every single move, breath, and look he sent out communicated seduction stronger than words ever could. And he had been teaching us this all weekend in all the exercises we'd done on breathing, and holding sensual eye contact, creating eye contact, and especially on touching women like a lover.

What he taught us was so simple, but so damn hard to get to... until we did the work. He taught us how to look at a woman as a lover from the very first second. And the trick to that is... if you look at her as a Lover, she looks at YOU as a Lover. No need for "escalation," or "sexually charged conversation." I looked at this beautiful woman on the couch across from me (who I'd wanted to seduce from the first moment she came into the class, but was scared, cos she was just too hot, too sexy, too out of my league), and realized that for the first time I could drop all my bullshit, all my tricks, all the pickup crap stuffed in my brain that had gotten me the success that only left me feeling like a fraud, and even more, drop all the insecurity I'd carried around since I was a geeky, skinny, nerdy teenager who couldn't get a date and couldn't figure out why it was so easy for everyone else. I dropped it all, because Hristiyan taught me the exact steps on how to really BE with a woman completely so she knows that you are the Lover she's been looking for.

I sat down. I smiled just a bit, and simply looked at her. I looked at her from the first second like i would look at a Lover in my sheets, laying back calm, sweat drying in the cool air, our breath merging as it slows. I didn't have to fake anything, and I didn't have to say anything. I could see her in my arms, taste her lips on mine, and the pure pleasure of that feeling was lighting me up and radiating to her. She got a little uncomfortable. "Aren't you going to say anything?" she asked. I nodded no, and kept looking. I breathed, deeper, slower. And I noticed she started to breathe slower and deeper with me, like magic. She kept asking questions, but they got fewer and fewer. She had started at the beginning trying to break her eyes away, but as I stayed there, her eyes stayed right with me. We had no words, and communicated far deeper and sexier than I ever could by talking. Finally, I reached over to her, slowly, slowly. I looked down for a second, then looked back up as I gently took her hand in mine. She twined her fingers around mine, and in that moment the entire world disappeared. Everyting went black and silent but for me and her in this moment, and I could feel the sexual energy pulsing from my body, into hers, and back again in a circuit. Our eyes locked and it seemed our bodies started to draw in closer like magnets, closer... closer... closer....

"OK, I think that's good for now!" Hristiyan said, and put his hands on my shoulders to pull me back gently. There was a big smile on his face. I looked around the room, and there was nothing but stunned looks and smiles on the faces of everyone, the students, the coaches, the other female assistant. They all felt it, and honestly, everyone looked pretty disappointed that they didn't get to see the kiss. I looked at the girl I had been with, and she looked pretty damn disappointed too. :)

It was like a movie. Straight up Clooney shit. And that's what I got from working with Hristiyan and his gift of teaching. Every moment with a woman, from the first second you see her through your first words, to the first kiss, till you lay her in your bed and take her to ecstacy, every moment is like a movie for her when you know what to do. You create the seduction and the sexual tension not with lines or routines or the other stuff that only gets in the way, but with everything that comes from inside. You build it with an expert who shows you how, and then it's yours forever.

When he took us out that day, I counted more women staring at me, on the street, in the stores, hell, even on the train, than ever before. I didn't have to say anything to them. I didn't have to prove how sexy I was, because thanks to Hristiyan, I was showing it every moment.

If you've seen my latest "hidden cam" video and wondered just how the hell I transformed from a dancing monkey (a good one), to a man who is just totally calm, confident, and sexual with women without seeming to even try, well, this is your answer. I learned it from Hristiyan. Take a look.

I know what you are thinking. I work with Hristiyan. He's part of my company. I coach with him at our events, and if I say good things about him, that's good for me and for business. If I say he's the best, it's good for me. And you've got a point.

But it's still the Truth.

There's a reason Hristiyan is the ONLY man I brought with me into my new company out of all the amazing teachers I know. I've worked with the very best of the best in this business. I know everybody, and have a lot of respect for their brilliance. But in my experience, no one, NO ONE is even close to Hristiyan's level. He is the best teacher, hands down, for any man, any level, any experience, who loves women and wants more choice, happiness, and fun with women in his life. If you like girls, don't waste another second. Let Hristiyan show you how to become the man that girls love.
- Sean Messenger, former Head Coach at PickUp 101,
star of DYD "Interviews with Dating Gurus," co-founder of LVO3

I am a dreamer but I am not the only one

2007-07-13T16:22:00.000-07:00

I dream for a better, happier world where people just get along... and yes, I am a fool, but I cannot help it. I have to follow my heart.

I go about my day and I see people that are not happy. I see people that settle with what they have, from their jobs to the people in their lives, and it hurts me.

I want to see people with their heads up and a smile on.

I see people afraid to go after what they want because they're afraid to lose what they already have, even if they are not happy with it.

I see people afraid of going after what they want because they might actually get it, and that scares them.

I see people afraid to surrender themselves to their hearts because they are afraid that they might get hurt.

Basically, I see people living in fear.

I am afraid too. I am scared like a little boy, but that is why I know I have to keep going and keep trying and to see what life has in store for me.

I have to know that at least I tried.

“If I have even just a little sense, I will walk on the main road and my only fear will be of straying from it.” Lao Tzu

I will tell you that a lot of times I get scared and I want to run like a little boy back to mommy.

Other times, I feel very lonely because very few people support you when you go after what your heart wants, instead of going after what is safe or what society expects of you.

I have lost a lot of friends along the way, but I have also found out who my real friends are, friends who I know will be there no matter what.

Many times I have asked myself the question, "Am I doing the right thing?"

I will tell you, your heart always knows the truth.

I will be the first to admit that I haven't always followed my heart, but time has showed me that it was always right.

So I am a dreamer and I dream of helping people walk with their heads up and with a smile on.

I go around and I teach men how to understand women better and I like to think that I am helping them, but who am I to tell you how things are? I am only human.

I only know what I have seen. Maybe you know more than I, but that is why I am more fortunate than most of you, because I go and teach 10 people at a time and I learn from all of them.

I grow every time I teach.

The funny thing is that the more I learn, the more I see that I do not know anything.

I think Socrates once told his student, "You know more than I because the more you know, the longer it will take you to realize that you do not know anything, and since I know more than you, it will take me longer to realize that I do not know anything."

I think it was something like that, but I am not sure. I know that these were not his exact words, so I will try to search for it online and see what I can find.

“When Socrates asked the Delphic oracle who was the wisest of men, the oracle replied that it was Socrates himself. Socrates was shocked to hear it. “Who, me?” he wondered. “I don’t know anything.” But as he contemplated the oracle’s answer, Socrates realized the oracle was right. Socrates indeed was wiser than other men. At least he knew he was ignorant; the others were ignorant and didn’t know it. As long as they were ignorant of their ignorance, they could never change it.”

by Michael Bauman

I have a long way to go until I realize that.

So for now, I hope that I am changing people's lives for the better. I dream of reaching everyone that wants to be helped and I hope to learn and grow with them.

I dream of changing the world and I am sure that I am not the only one. Maybe one day I will realize that I do not know anything and I will just get lost in the void of the universe...

The Three Steps Of Having Women Come To You

2007-07-06T16:12:00.000-07:00

How can you get to be so good with women that you do not have to ever go out and pick up women?

I hate the word "pick-up". I hate the fact that I have to go out with the pure purpose to run after women.

Real men do not go out of their way to meet women.

Real men are focused on their life purpose and whenever they meet a woman on their life path, they bring her along for the ride of her life.

I know many of you are reading this and are thinking "Yes, this sounds very poetic and all (by the way, people tend to believe things that are poetic) but HOW THE FUCK DO I DO IT".

I will break it down for you.

First, and most importantly: You Have To Believe That You Are Worthy of Everything You Desire, Dream Of, and Want.

I have a lot of friends that say, “I would love to have a Porsche”, but most of them do not feel that they are worthy of having one. For them, it is not even a dream, but more like a fantasy.

I also have friends that do own a Porsche and for them, it was always just a matter of time before they got one. It was never a question of whether they would have one or not. It was more like, “Ah ya, Porsche. No biggie. I will get mine.”

When it comes to women, you have to feel the same way. You have to know in your body that you are worthy of having the women that you desire.

The Second Step: Get In Touch With Your Purpose.

We are all here for a reason.

What is the reason that you are here? Why do you wake up in the morning?

“Admit to yourself that if you had to choose one or the other, the perfect intimate relationship or achieving your highest purpose in life, you would choose to succeed at your purpose. Just this self-knowledge often relieves much pressure a man feels to prioritize his relationship when, in fact, it is not his highest priority.”
David Deida

When you approach life in that manner, you are a real man.

I have asked a lot of women (and I mean women, not girls), "So what kind of man do you like?"

Most of the time, I have gotten the response “I want a MAN.” Or if they want to be sweet, they will say, “I want a MANLY man.”

Women want to know that you are focused on your life and that you go after what you want and that she cannot move you from your life path. Believe me, she will try to do so, just to see if you are man enough to stay on your life path. If you get off your path because of her, she will lose her attraction for you.

Step Three: Learn About Women.

Learn why they are so beautiful and why they make the world a better, happier place with their beauty.

Understand women on a deeper level, appreciate women on a deeper level.

See the beauty in her and then bring it out of her and cherish it, and she will melt in your hands.

So how do you do that?

The best way for you would be to get your ass in one of the workshops that I lead.

Second, maybe you can convince me to give you some coaching.

Go out there, read books, practice.

Learn from those around you who are better than you.

But no matter what you decide to do, and I know you will do something to become better men because you are already here reading this,

BE AWARE, BE PRESENT.

You can learn from every interaction you have with every woman, if you are there, present, and aware of what is going on.

These are the 3 steps to have women just come into your life without you having to go out to “pick them up”.

Once you master them, when you go out to have a drink with your buddy, I promise you that an amazing woman will appear out of nowhere, and she will get lost in your eyes, and all you will have to do is reach your arm out and say, “Let's get out of here.”

Crazy, you think. I say magical.

How could that possibly happen, you might ask?

When you are that kind of man, she will be able to see you from a mile away and she will gravitate to you.

When you are that kind of man, you will see her half a mile away (a woman will always be more aware, so she will see you first) and you will gravitate to her and, like I said, all you need to do is reach out and lead her.

Check my Podcast on Foreplay it will give you better understanding on how to have more women in your life

"Foreplay: Advanced Techniques"

"Foreplay: The Basics"

How to escalate the interaction

2007-04-02T03:05:00.000-07:00

Lately, my friends and I have been talking a lot about "Sexual Escalation", so I want to talk about that too and hopefully help you guys have a better understanding of it.

I feel like a lot of people understand sexual escalation as literally, "being sexual by what you are saying, and by doing a lot of kino."

Yes, it is very important what you say and, of course, how you say it. And yes, kino is important, but...

What I am saying is that if you like a girl, you should be sexual with her 24/7 from the very first second.

Here comes the key point that many men miss. You have to be in control of your sexuality, and you have to be in control of your sexual needs and desires.

You are in control of your sexuality; sexuality is not in control of your life.
You are in control of your emotions; you don't let your emotions control your life.

That drives women crazy.

So how do you escalate?

You show her all the time that you are very sexual and a sensitive being, but for her to get a taste of it, she needs to earn it.

Look at her in a seductive, sexual way. Be very comfortable with it, but don't even touch her.

It is very important that you hold the tension and that you don't smile. If she smiles, you keep that seductive look and show her that you are seriously thinking of her in a sexual way.

She will be like, “Why is he being so sexual but not doing anything about it?”

You are not doing anything because you are in control of yourself, and she will want to break that because she is not used to seeing a man like that. That, right there, is going to make her get closer to you and be sexual with you back.

If she is a very confident woman (the one that you want to be with, anyway) she will not try to break it. She will just feel comfortable around you so she can allow herself to be herself with you and to be sexual with you, too.

You want to have sex. You love to have sex, but you understand that sex is something very beautiful, intimate, and sacred.

For you, sex is not just sticking it inside of an object.

You understand that sex is about two people getting together to enjoy the beauty of each other, and sex is the way they celebrate the joy of each other.

So even though you want to have sex, you want to find someone that is worth your time, someone that is worthy of sharing that beauty with you.

Someone that is up to your standards!

So you are not going “all the way” because you are looking for the beauty inside of her. You might find it, you might not. No, until you find something that is special about her, you will not give her any more than a friendly hug. It goes back to the post, ”it is all about her”.

I don't want to make things dramatic, you can find a lot of things that you like in a woman in a matter of seconds, but for you to go all the way, you need more than that.

Then let's say you are very close to her physically. You have your arm around her because you found something special about her.

Then you can get very close to her lips and tell her “I really want to kiss you right now, you are so sexy and beautiful but I need to get to know you better first and I am not sure if you are ready for it.” Of course, you do not kiss her.

Again, that shows that you are in control of yourself and you will not let your emotions control your life, the same way you don't punch every person in the face that makes you angry.

Here comes a part that is hard to explain. You tell her, “I am not sure if you are ready for it”, only if she is really not ready for it.

What do I mean by this?

You don't want her to just open her legs for you, she might be ready for that.
You want her to cum for you like she has for no one else because that is what makes you feel like a man.

Is there anything more rewarding in life than for a man to elicit powerful desires, passions and responsiveness from a woman? If there is, I don't know of it.

For a woman to share her orgasm with you, she must trust you. If she does not trust you, she is not yet ready for your kiss.

If she is ready and you tell her, then you will blow it.

When I say I don't want her to just open her legs for me, I mean if she will not allow herself to have an orgasm, then how is that fun for me?

Sex is a dance that takes two people. If only one is dancing, or one is only in it half ass, what is the fun in that?

So this is how you escalate: by being in control of the interaction.

I see men approach and approach women, and the first one that opens to them is the one they go for.

This is not being in control.

Women are so used to controlling the interaction and that is so boring to them. They hate that.

If a woman gets horny, she knows that all she needs to do is put some sexy outfit on, go to the first bar she sees, and she will get what she wants because she knows men are not in control.

So when you show her that you are in control, it will drive her crazy and it will make her want you more.

The more she sees that you are in control, the more she will want you.

You could be very sexual, and you could be doing a lot of kino, and talk a lot about sex. Or you could just be sexual by simply looking at her in “that” way. You are not drooling all over her like you have never seen a woman before.

There is a lot to talk about, but I hope this will give you an idea of what it truly means to escalate, and if you do want to know more about how to escalate the interaction go get my Foreplay Podcasts right now:

"Foreplay: Advanced Techniques"

"Foreplay: The Basics"

LET ME SAY IT AGAIN. YOU ARE MAKING HER WANT YOU MORE AND MORE AND MORE (ESCALATING) BY BEING IN CONTROL OF YOURSELF AND OF THE INTERACTION.

"300"

2007-03-22T01:54:00.000-07:00

So I just want to say thank you so much to all the great responses that I got after I posted “It is all about her”.

You guys really made me happy saying all the things you had to say you inspire me to keep going.

So I just saw “300”

I really like it since I saw it in the I-max I really got to experience it.

What I want to say is that this film is all about real man.

Men that know what they want, men that have real passion about life, man that believe in something and are ready to die for it, men that are not scared to go after what they want.

I know that this film is an extreme example but that is what women are attractive to, man that has a “back bone”.

If you want women to like you find your passion in life, find what is it that you want so badly that you are ready to die for it and go after it.

When you do that women will run after you.

Be the man that she has fantasy's about since she was a little girl.

I know I am being extreme here but the idea is that if you get half of what I am trying to say it will be so powerful for you.

Keep your cool when things get hot, don't be scared to be vulnerable in front of her, don't be scared to ask her for advice.

Respect yourself and respect her, treat her as equal (not more like a lot of "nice guys" do and not less like a lot of "bad boys" do)

So this film make me think about all this things so I wanted to share them with all of you.

PS: Same feeling I get from “Sin City”

It is all about her.

2007-03-13T00:26:00.000-07:00

OK if you want to be successful with your interaction with women I will give you a very simple way of doing it.

You should also keep it on the core of your interaction with women.

Most guys are thinking what do I say to a woman so she can like me.

This is the very first mistake man do.

First of all the question is not “whether does she likes you” the question is “whether do you like her”

When you talk to her look at her, search for the beauty inside of her, find what makes her different from all the rest of the women that you have ever met before.

What makes her unique.

I will go that far to even say forget that you even have a dick.

Concentrate on her and when you need your dick I promise you it will be there.

If you do that you will have so much more things to talk about because it will be so easy for you to connect with her and to find a common grown, to find a place where you connect with her.

It is not just her face, her figure, or her voice.

Look into her eyes and find what is behind them, find her spirit and let it be free.

Allow her to be herself with you.

Find the little baby girl that is trying to be a grown mature woman.

If you can do that, women will not be able to say no to you even if they want to, and if they do say no is because they want to say yes so badly that is scaring them.

For those women you can not do anything about they do not want to allow themselves to be free and that is something that they need to work on.

I think what I am trying to say it is described best on this quoth form the film “Don Juan DeMarco”

Women react to me the way that they do, Don Ottavio,
because they sense that I search out the beauty that
wells within them, until it overwhelms everything, and
then they cannot avoid their desires to release that
beauty and envelope me in it." Don Juan DeMarco

When you do talk to her feel her softness and warmness and that will make her weightless.

Smell her perfume and experience how does it make you feel how it brings tears to your eyes.

I want you to fell how she smells like angels ought to smell.

If you do all this instate of thinking about your dick and instate how can you get her to get in bed with you, you will be able to get a lot more quality women in your bed.

I do believe women are Gods master peace, they are the Gods best creation, they are the best art peace in the world so I treat it and appreciate it in that way.

It hurts me to see guys mistreat this art, but what hurts me even more is to see women mistreat themselves.

When I was a kid my mom use to say “there is nothing more powerful them a woman that knows her price”.

PS: let me brag a bit yesterday after AoA I went to celebrate our successful kick ass workshop with all the instructors we go to have diner and there comes the waitress of course all the instructors jump on her.
But who got her phone number? Me.
Why? I can tell you is not because I know the best technic, not at all.
It is because I did everything I just describe.

All I do is: I do what I just describe and I say “hi” and the rest just unfold right before my eyes.

The right discipline

2007-03-12T23:11:00.000-07:00

A man is born gentle and weak.
At his death he is hard and stiff.
Green Plants are tender and filled with sap.
At their death they are withered and dry.
Therefore the stiff and unbending is the discipline of death.
The gentle and yielding is the discipline of life.

Verse 76

Soft and weak overcome hard and strong.

Verse 36

Lao Tzu

March 8: the international day of the woman.

2007-03-08T02:17:00.000-08:00

Hi guys I just want to remind every men out there that today March 8 is the international day of the women.

Since I love women so much this is easily my favored holiday of the year.

I want to encourage every men to show their appreciation for all the women in their life a little more today.

Call them and tell them how much you appreciate them and how happy you are to have them in your life.

Start with your mom.

Also all the new women you meet today give them a little more then usual.

Love and light to all of you.

From the Captain.

Do you love your mom?

2007-02-27T23:54:00.000-08:00

Here is a very touchy subject that I want to talk about.

I hope that it comes out right.

It is about your relationship with your mom.

I have been thinking a lot about this the last few days and I was debating whether I should write about it or not.

Basically I believe to be good with women you have to be able to have a good relationship with your mom.

See I love my mom I even called her last night to tell her that I am going to write about this and she said that I should do it, so I am.

See you have met, you do meet and you will meet a lot of women in your life, but there is one that is for life.

If a woman blows you off you know you turn the corner and you can meet an other one.

But if you mom blows you of in anyway it gets right trough you, it gets straight to your hard and it hurts.

So if you read my post “Women want a man that can handle them” it is the same principal.

You have to know how to “handle” your mom and I do believe she will be the hardest one to “handle”.

What I mean by this is she is the hardest one because she knows you the best, and she loves you the most, she will love you more then any women you will ever meet.

So you cannot play games with her, with her you have to be real, and that is how you should be with any woman.

So when your mom is on your case or when she is mean to you, or when she is not being supportive, is because she wants to know that you love her.

She cannot ask “do you love me” and you don't have to even say it with words if you don't want.

Show it to her.

It took me a long time to understand all this.

See I left home when I was 17 and I came to USA (I am from Bulgaria). It is 8 years later I have seen very little of my mom.

Every time a call her she will be almost always telling me that I wasn't doing something right, and it hurt me so much because I am all alone in USA and I try hard and I would of love to had her support.

So we would fight a lot and it was a big mess.

So know that I understand women and life so much better, my relationship with her now is great.

Now I know that all she wanted is to know that I love her and that I miss her.

I call her more often now, I banter with her, I shear my fun times, I tell her how I pick up women, I share with her my successes and my pain.

She still try to tell me what to do and how to do it. I just let her speak, I let her finish, so she knows that I care what she thinks and then if I like it I will tell her so if not I will tell her so too and she loves me for it.

Is great, it feels great too. It feels good to have her support.

I will tell you what dough it is fucking hard to do all this, again because you cannot just leave her and go find an other mother.

If you know how to interact with your mom you will know how to interact with any woman.

So if you want to be better with women call your mom right now.

Tell her how much she means to you, tell her how much you love her, tell her what you have been up to, ask her what she thinks about it.

I guaranty you that if you can do this right you will be instantly a better man and women will be more attracted to you.

PS: by the way this is photo is of my mom and I from like 8-9 years ago when I was 16.
So cute

Women want a man that can handle them

2007-02-24T19:00:00.000-08:00

When you talk to a women you want to approach her from a point of Fun and Curiosity.

Women want a man that can handle them!

I heard so many women tell me “He knows how to handle me” that is of course if they speak about a man that they like. Or my other favorite is “I love to be man handled”

What is that women mean when they say that?

For a women is wrong to ask for attention and I will not even mention sex.

Also women are emotional creatures and are very in-tune with there feelings and emotions.

They understand one other without words she does not need to tell her girlfriend that she is feeling bad today she knows it just by hearing her voice.

You have to base your interaction with a woman base on this two main factors about women.

What does a woman do when she wants your attention, or when she is feeling hurt, or when she is feeling lonely, or even when she is feeling fat?

She will start a fight with you for no reason, she will start blaming you for something that you are doing, or everything that you are doing, and of course you can never win.

Here comes the part where she wants you to know how to handle her.

Very key point here.

She hate herself for starting this fight, she knows it is pointless but what she hates even more is that you don't know that is pointless and that you try to look for reasons behind her action, then you start blaming her for going crazy, or even worst taking the responsibility of her going crazy.

She just wanted your attention that is all.

So give it to her don't fight with her.

Be the man she wants you to be.

All you need to do at this point look at her like she is your cute baby girl and don't take her seriously.

At moments like that is especially important to keep your cool and to approach her from a place of curiosity and fun.

Do not go into it, don't ignore her but don't take her seriously, have fun.

Most likely she just wanted to have sex.

So I would even go that far to say that the best way to deal with the situation is to throw her down and have sex with her right there and then.

God she will love you so much for it.

This is what she means by saying “He knows how to handle me”

Because women can not handle themselves when it comes to this little stupid games that they play so the need you to be the man that can help them win the game.

I love women, I adore them so I love this little games, I think they are very cute.

Here is an other key point.

Women play this games from the moment they meet you. From the very first second.

Keep this in mind next time you think you got blown off by a girl, may be she was just playing a game with you, may be she was just testing you to see if you can step up.

She wants to know if you can handle her from the very first second.

When you leave the first time she plays a game with you, then obviously you don't know how to handle her. Further more is that if you cannot handle her in a simple little test that she did, she will be thinking "how the hell are you going to handle me in the bedroom?".

PS: A little story to back my post:

I met a girl, the attraction was on.

We move to an other bar with few of my friends and her friend.

When we were in this other bar she started flirting with my friend in a very obvious way.

I loved seeing this because I knew exactly what she was doing, she was testing me.

I looked at her and I was thinking to myself “oh god you are so cute”

So after 5 or 10 min of that she realized that I don't give a fuck I was even happy for her that she is having fun. (felt little sorry for my friend because he tough he stole my girl, and she was just using him)

What you think happened next?

She came in and she throws herself at me and she tells me “you are so cool, you give me my space, and you let me be. You know how to handle me”

That was in about 2 hours after I met her.

You guess what happen next...

You fucking me makes me bilingual

2007-02-19T23:48:00.000-08:00

OK guys here are the lyrics of a song that I believe best describe what a woman wants from a real man.

“The only aphrodisiac I need is your voice

Hearing you speak my name

Beckoning me to answer

Telling me you want me

So I tell you that you're the answer to every question I've ever had about love

Without words I use my tongue to tell the tale of us

Tracing your shadowscape

Kneeling before you my eyes feast upon your masculinity and

All its divinity and I praise you

Because all of that is for me

I begin to indulge myself of your delicacies

Digesting semi-sweet dark chocolate decadence as it melts

Dripping down my chin

Your taste is something that I ever couldn't re-create

Needing every atom of your anatomy

Necessity is placed upon me knowing you are the source of my serendipity

Dipping in and out of me stroking more than my consciousness

Subconsciously I find myself rewinding our love scenes

In my daydreams

Seeing that face you make when you're making me cum

And it makes me want you right there and then

Thinking of you in inappropriate places I get

Tingling sensations in private locations where I wish to be caught between a rock and your hard place

As wetness develops my legs begin to open and my spot turns to a backdraft and all I want you to do is extinguish it

You know my body like the back of your hands

And touch me and send me into ecstasy

My thighs quiver in anticipation of deep penetration which gets me high

Body rising

Sweating

Panting

Make-up melting

Pulling my hair and

Scratching my back

I get a temporary case of tourettes because all I can say are four letter words in a four octave-range screaming your name

[Spanish]

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

I see your tongue pink between your lips and I want it between mine

And I struggle

As you lick torturing me

I try to get away but

Not really

Running out of room begging for more up against the wall that has been scuffed by my stilletos

Again

You pry apart my thighs and tell me to be still

And I willingly submit to you because I love the way you dominate me

Demanding that I cum for you so I do as I'm told

You've molded me so I'm good to no-one else but you

You've conquered this once orgasmicless world and multiplied it

Again and

Again

My face radiates with after-glow

My pillow scented by you

A fragrance which haunts me

My room smells of the best sex

I

Covered in body prints and finger prints and you above me

Your name written indelibly upon my body in your genetic history

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual

You fucking me makes me bilingual”

I hope you notice how she wants him to lead hear and the more he leads her, the more he is control the more she wants it.
“And I willingly submit to you because I love the way you dominate me
”

2007-02-16T18:21:00.000-08:00

"THE TAO IS CALLING TO YOU TO LEAVE BEHIND YOUR SEROUS, GLOOMY, DARK, ISOLATED LIFE AND TO JOIN IN THE DANCE OF PURE BEING"
John Lash

Flowers and Women

2007-01-24T13:37:00.000-08:00

It is not what you do is how you do i t.

I can give you the best “trick” in the world and if you don't do it right it will not work.

What makes it work is the believe system that you have.

Are you doing it out of desperation or simple because you love and enjoy everything about her, everything that makes her a women?

I will give you a very small example, so you have something to think about.

Flowers:

If you give her flowers because you want something in return it will not get you anywhere.
She will know that you are giving her flowers not simple because you want to give it to her but because you want to get in her panties.
Don't get me wrong she will take them and she might even enjoy them but all you did was to feed her ego.
You even fuck it up for the next guy that will come around because now she is starting to believe that all guys are like that.

The worst of all is that she will sense where you coming from right away.
By the way for her is all emotional many women cannot put there finger on it and tell you why they like something or why they don't like it.
If you ask a women why she likes him she will just have this dreamy look in her eyes and tell you “because he is cute”.

But if you simple give her a flower for the simple reason that you want to celebrate her beauty as a woman and everything that makes her a women, if you want to compliment her femininity with a beautiful flower.
Now that is a different story, she will love and cherish it.
If you give it to her and ask for nothing back and you are doing it just because she looks so beautiful and that is your way of showing that her beauty makes you happy.

You know women love to test you to see if you are for real or not.
Sometime after you do something nice for her she might be not exactly nice to you just to see your reaction and if you have attitude is something like, but I just did this and that for you... then you are in big trouble.
If you ignore her test and just be your cool self then you get a point in her book.
She will think oh he is man enough to handle me and to stand his ground I guess he likes me for who I am.

So no matter what “trick” you use think about how you are using it.
Get in touch with your inner self and be aware of what you are doing, be aware of her.

Now go out there now and make a women feel like a woman.

So What Are Dreams

2007-01-22T15:53:00.000-08:00

My dreams are worthless, my plans are dust, my goals are impossible.
All are of no value unless they are followed by Action.
I will act now.

Dreams are the fuel you need to act.
Dreams are the the road map to where you want to go.

So dreams are the first step.
So find out what you want out of life that is probably the hardest thing anyone have to do.
I look for the answer of this question every day and I am sure I will never find it because I don't know what is good for me and what is bad for me.

I have lived long enough to know that I have been wrong many times in my life and many times I have though something was good for me only to find out a year later that it was the worst thing for me.
But there is this thing where you can turn bad things into good things and to keep going further and further ahead.

What do I mean by turning bad things into good things is the power to see what was good about what happen and what was bad about what happen because everything that happens to you could be bad or good it is up to you how you want to see it.
I choose to see it on the good site.

For example I went into a real estate deal with a friend of mine 2 years ago and I lost a lot of money lost him as a friend and because of how busy I was cost me a lots of troubles with my girlfriend at the time.
When I first got in it the deal I was so happy I thought I was a big shot now and that I will make a lot of money but few months later I saw that it was a very bad decisions.
I could blame it on one million things and I could give you that much more excuses of why things went bad.

But to me that was the easy way out, I had to look deep into what had happen and into myself and to learn from the experience, so I did and I can tell you that I learn more about myself, about my friend, about my girlfriend at the time, and about the real estate and about a lot more things then ever before.
If I did make money I was going to be happy the money would have been spend by now but what I learn from it the knowledge stays with me for life and that is priceless and that is how you can turn bad things into good things.
The reason I turn bed into good was because I have big dreams that are backed with a strong believe and I am not afraid of falling down I know it is part of the process.
Only a worm is free from the worry of stumbling. I am not a worm.

So I dream of being with the right women I don't try to describe her to myself but I could tell you what she feels like I don't know which women will make me happy but I dream of her I miss her every day even dough I haven't met her yet.
You get what I am getting at.
So no matter how many women break my hard or how many reject me I know that she is just around the corner but I know I have to go through all of them so I can learn from all the mistakes I make with them so I can be ready for her in away I am always ready for her and yet I will never be.
I believe that I deserve to be with the right one and I will never settle down for nothing less.
It is the same with all dreams.
But you have to act now because all you have is here and now and yourself.

THIS IS THE TIME
THIS IS THE PLACE
YOU ARE THE MAN

Go ahead dream big, act now, and be happy

Dream Big

2007-01-20T15:14:00.000-08:00

“Some men see things as they are and say, ‘Why?’
I dream things that never were and say, ‘Why not?’”

The mean of “Dream Big” is shown very well in this quote by Robert Kennedy.

I dare to dream big and I dare you to dream big.

Dreams are the first step to anything, you cannot get anywhere in life if you don't first want it.

Ask yourself today this very simple question?

“What do I Want?”

Dream Big: Dream until your dream becomes so vivid that you can feel that you are already there and that in you are living in it, Dream until you realize that you already have it!

You Have IT

Things in life come only to those who already have, and those who do not have more shall be taken from them.

Have the belief that you can accomplish your dream no matter what it is, even if it is the last thing you do in your life.

Once you have such a strong belief then the unseen power of the universe will believe it too and it will join you in the dance of pure being.
The power of the ever flowing universal energy will help you get to where you want to be, no matter how far that is from where you are now.
Join me in the dance of pure being by believing in yourself and in your dreams.

Something that I have to remind my self to remember is to laugh at myself whenever I lose my belief for a moment, because man is most comical when he takes himself too seriously.
Laughter is one of nature's greatest gifts, no living creature can laugh except man. Trees may bleed, beast will cry in pain and hunger, yet only we have the gift of laughter and is ours to use whenever we choose.

I invite you to commit to practicing and cultivating the habit of laughter.

After all what can take place before the sun goes down which will not seem insignificant in the river of centuries?

Last but not least remain as a new born child, for only then I can look up to others; and so long as I look up to another I will never grow too long for my cot.

To enjoy success I must have happiness, and laughter!
I am Happy.
I am Successful.